What is the deal with being jealous?
I don't get it.
Somebody tells you they have something really exciting going on and our first reaction is to say,
"I'm so jealous!"
And it seems like its what that person wants to hear.
Alright I'm sure this isn't true for everyone.
I have in the past enjoyed telling others of my fortunes and then reveling in their jealousy, but that was when I was a stupid and selfish teenager. I've grown up a lot since then, and now I feel really bad when people tell me they are jealous of something I'm doing or have. I feel like I need to apologize for something I have worked really hard for or have simply had the fortune of receiving. Like there needs to be some excuse.
Then to make matters worse I tell people I am jealous of their good news.
I don't really feel jealous, usually I am really excited that they have such an exciting whatever happening, and yet I feel the need to tell them I am jealous.
I'm not going to do it anymore. It feels wrong to say and I don't like saying it.
Jealous is very much the wrong word